I am gonna Choose a Promise…

Hey All,

I don’t know about you, but I love the show Extreme Weight Loss with Chris & Heidi Powell ,which airs on ABC on Tuesday nights.  Here are some links that you can check out if you like.

Official ABC Extreme Weight Loss  Site

Chris Powell’s Official Site

Heidi Powell’s Official Site

Page from Chris’s Site that Inspired this Post

Chris & Heidi Powell

Chris & Heidi Powell

As I was wondering about Chris’s site I stumbled upon his “Getting Started on Your Transformation” section.  I have watched the show many time, but I never thought to head over to his website.  Well the first part of the transformation is “Choosing a Promise.”  I have to admit that I have made a lot of promises both weight loss wise and not in my 29 years of life that I failed to keep. The advice that he give is to make it so small that it is basically impossible to break or fail to complete.

I sit here at my desk with Monsters Inc. playing in the back ground wondering what promise I can make myself that I wouldn’t break even when my life gets hard or busy.  I also wonder why I break so many promises to myself and don’t feel bad about it, but when I break a promise to someone else I feel such a sense of guilt and self loathing.  Shouldn’t the promises I make to myself be just as important.

Promises are for the long run.  I know important my physical health is and losing weight is my goal, but I have decide not to start off with a fitness promise, but to make my promise one for the mind and spirit as those are just as important along this journey as getting my body healthy. I promise myself that I will read Christian Larson’s Promises Piece – modified for The Secret daily.


There is something about this piece that often helps me overcome hard times.  I hope that by reading this piece daily that I will be able to overcome any obstacle even when going against the odds, and that I will be able to live my live by these words and open myself up to all of the greatness out in the universe that is just waiting for me to open myself up to it.

Though the video is from I think the end of 2012 Mayi Carles has a great video on The Snowball Effect which hits on the point that Chris Powell makes about making promises so small that you can’t fail it. If you haven’t made little promises to yourself to build a great foundation made up of little promises kept to your self then join in on choosing a promise.

The Universe is in my thoughts there by so are you.  Be blessed.

<3 Hill

Struggling with Cravings

Hey All,

So I have been keeping track of all my stats (weight, measurements, food journal, workout plan, and such) through google docs that I shared with my sisters and a few friends.  I have noticed that somedays I am not eating enough while other days I can’t say no to sweets.  Not to say that I eat at lot of it, but even indulging a little makes me a little cranky with myself.  I don’t wanna be that person though.  The old me would gobble up sweets when given even a little, but now days I eat a 6 pack of oreos or 20 nillas (this is a little much)…which isn’t good, but it is so much better than I was in the past.


I think I need those little things now because when I deny myself I end up feeling like an addict around any sweets and when I get a little I devour a lot…a lot a lot.  I don’t know about others, but the larger part of me feels that I need to give in a little especially while I am learning to curb my eating and make good changes.  I am not saying that I will forever be eating these items, but for now it seems to help to allow myself these items as long as for 80% – 90% of my day I am eating on par with what is needed.

If-you-have-eaten copy

This picture says so much.  I am not eating as I have always eaten, so I feel like I need to not be so hard on myself and that I shouldn’t dwell on the fact that I ate some oreos or anything else as long as I don’t gorge on it. I have high hopes that as I move forward there will come a day when I can eat a cookie and not 6.  When I will enjoy a piece of cake and not feel like I need another slice or my world is over.  Time will tell, but each decision I make now feels so much more weightier…like it mean so much more and failing is something that most of us have dealt with in one form or another.  I don’t want to fail and I guess that as long as I am making strides toward my goals that failure isn’t something I need to worry about.

Choose-to-live-healthy1 copy

I hope everyone is wining the battle in this game of life that we are all playing.  I loved the picture above cause one day I hope I’d rather eat a healthy meal than hit a drive through.  I am currently doing well with my eating and the cravings aren’t every second of every day, but lets be real here for a second…I can’t deny that I still crave a quick, but unhealthy meal when I am tired and just don’t want to spend time in the kitchen.

The Universe is in my thoughts there by so are you. Be Blessed.

<3 Hill

Dancing + Exercise = Zumba

Hey All,

I have decided to do a post on Zumba.  So over the years I bought the first set of Zumba CD’s and then I bought the 2nd set and I loved them, but I just didn’t do it as much as I thought that I would, but after signing up for a 24 hour fitness I tried a Zumba class and what a difference it made to be in a class with others.  The energy was crazy and I found that being in class some how made me push myself farther than I would have if I had been at home. My membership at 24 hour fitness didn’t last because I was intimidated to go because most of the people there were so fit…while I felt like the fattest person in the whole building.

Logically I know that wasn’t always true, but it was a mental hinderance.  Well I am currently signed up with the YMCA, which I will once again praise for having such awesome staff and such a wide range of clients who attend classes and use the facilities.  Well I love Zumba class a lot.  In my workout plan I go on Tuesday and Thursday afternoon, and I go on Saturday morning.

I don’t have any claim on knowing how to dance or dancing well for that matter, but Zumba makes exercise fun and I feel happy when I hear the music and I make it through each class.  Below are pics from each of my classes this week.

Tuesday Class

Tuesday Class

This is a picture of Michelle, the instructor, me (orange tee), and my little sister Kennosha.  It was the first time that I had attended Michelle’s class, but it was packed with not just cardio, but also toning songs as well.

Thursday Class

Thursday Class

This is a picture of Diana (pink outfit) she teaches on Monday afternoon, but she is currently helping out with teaching half of Bonnie’s class time.  Bonnie is the instructor in the white YMCA T-shirt who is currently 8+ months pregnant with a little girl.  Sort of funny that even pregnant she still does the moves faster than I do.

Saturday Class

This is Kana, the instructor, and I.  I have been attending her classes for the longest amount of time. Yet I still sweat hella bad cause of the constant breaks I used to take when school got busy.

Like I said...this picture pretty much says it all.  Some people really look like they feel, but the majority of us are just out there having fun while burning calories.

Like I said…this picture pretty much says it all. Some people really look like they feel, but the majority of us are just out there having fun while burning calories.

If you enjoy dancing…even if you feel you don’t dance well or have two left feet…I would encourage your to try Zumba class.  If you have a membership to a facility and they have a class give it a try, but If you don’t have a membership then perhaps you can look at a near by community center or go to http://www.zumba.com/en-US/, which is the official Zumba website to search for classes near you.  On Oahu my sister has found classes for as cheap at $2.00 per session.  Below I have selected a video from youtube that you could try out at home.  Youtube is choke full of Zumba workouts if you search for them.


 The Universe is in my thoughts there by so are you. Be blessed.

<3 Hill



It is OFFICIAL my weigh in has moved

Hey All,

So I usually weigh in on Sunday, but after talking to a friend who is acting as a kind of personal trainer for me we have decided that I should weigh in on Wednesdays.  I’m Done Being The Fat Girl at http://imdonebeingthefatgirl.wordpress.com does her weigh in on Wednesday, which also helped me make the move.

I feel a little relieved to have moved my weigh ins.  Sunday is what I consider the beginning of my week, but it is also a rest day for me, which when I have bad numbers leaves me with tons of time to rehash all I did the week before.  This can and has in the past created a downward spiral that can cause me to eat…cause what’s the point of continuing on and so on and so forth – basically all the self hatred and disgust come to a boil.


Having it on Wednesday doesn’t allow me that time.  I have work, then I have to pick up my mom from work, and the most helpful thing is that I meet and workout with my personal trainer that day and if I need to talk she is always there to listen and help me analyze and strategize.

Last Week Sunday – 7/20/2014
349.0 lb.

Current Weight – 7/23/2014
343.4 lb.

Down 5.6 lb.

I know it has only been 3 days, so I am taking this loss with a little hinderance as I know that our bodies flux, but I hope to keep as much of it off and then some. Either way as long as I know that I am giving it my all – eating right and exercising – then all I can do is keep moving forward.

The Universe is in my thoughts there by so are you. Be blessed.

<3 Hill

1st – 30 Day Challenge

Hey All,

So after reading a few blogs where they have 30 day challenges I decided to start one of my own.  Thank you to Walking My Way to Skinny at http://walkingmywaytoskinny1.wordpress.com for being my primary inspiration.  I currently don’t do walking as an exercise.  I have planters fasciitis in both my heels.  After any exercise on my feet that night and the next day my heels are inflamed, but prolonged walking of any type means that the next morning I can barely put weight on my heels.

As not to let this foot problem get to me I do Zumba, elliptical, and weight training.  The Zumba and Elliptical both have varying degrees of pain, but no where near as painful as when I do a few miles of walking.  People say that if you buy inserts for your shoes it drastically helps, but I just don’t have $300 – $600 right now to have personal inserts made for my shoes.


It is for the above reasons I have decided that my 30 day Challenge is going to be reaching 36,000 strides on the elliptical.  

Start Date: 7/23/2014
End Date: 8/21/2014

In my workout plan I do the elliptical twice a week for 30 minutes spread between circuits of weight lifting.  On a great day I can get roughly 2900 strides in 30 minutes, which means that if I keep up with my twice a week workout plan that I will hit 5,800 strides.  To meet my weekly goal of 9000 I will need to get in 3,200 extra strides.

I think it is doable and I hope that it pushes me a little to put in a little more elliptical time to reach my goal.  Something funny is that I used to hate the elliptical cause the few times in the long ago past that I would try it while holding the arm part which gives your arms a workout while your legs are working out and I could not for my life get the rhythm down and felt off kilter.  If you have read my weigh in posts you know I weigh 349 pounds, but you don’t know that my bra size is a 44G…


So to say the least as my body is on the down motion, but my breast are still a movement behind which just threw me off, so this time around I don’t use the arm mover thingy I just use the stationary are rest place.  The things a girls gotta do to get her breast to cooperate while working out :)

Wish me luck and I will keep you posted through posts about my weekly totals, but I have a page dedicated to my 30 day Challenge, which I hope there are many to come.

The Universe is in my thought there by so are you. Be blessed.

<3 Hill

Sunday Weigh In Time :)

Hey All,

So it has been a bit cause time seems to get away from me.  About a week and a half ago I wasn’t feeling too well, but I was on the getting better side of a cold, so I did make it to Zumba at the YMCA which is always fun.  Damn did I sweat up a puddle that I mopped up as it was running down my face with a towel.  Didn’t help that at some points one of my nostrils would become stuffed.  There was definitely lost of huffing and puffing going on.  I do love Zumba at the YMCA though.



The Zumba at the YMCA has such a variety of clientele that you don’t feel out of place.  I am by far the largest person in the class, but to hell with it.  I go in there and do the best that I can.  After class while filling up our water bottles a young woman commented on how I stuck it out through the entire thing.  The comment was on the she was surprised spectrum, but I choose to take that as a compliment.  I hope to keep going and working on my fitness in the upcoming week.

I will be combining two weeks of weigh in in one to play catch up.

I had a weird week where I didn’t think I did that horrible, but ended up with the scale saying I put on 9.2 pounds

6/30/14 Sunday: 344.2

7/6/14 Sunday: 353.4 –> Gain of 9.2

7/8/14 Tuesday: 344.6 – Unofficial Weigh In cause quite frankly I had a severe stomach ache through Monday and Tuesday.

7/13/14 Sunday: 349.8 – Loss of 3.6

7/20/14 Sunday: 349.0 – Loss of 0.8

So it has been a weird weigh in segment for me, but I can’t undo that now, so I am looking forward to the next week.  I often spend so much time looking back on the shoulda, woulda, and coulda moments that I lose track of all the great things that I have to be thankful for in my life. So I hope to make it happen by looking forward and living in the present more than in the past.


I hope to get in more posts this week on things in my life and things I come across. The universe is in my thoughts there by so are you.

Be Blessed,

<3 Hill

Blue Light = Wakefulness

Hey All,

So I came across a blog or website call Authority Nutrition written by a medical student from Iceland.  It has a lot of really great articles based on the scientific approach.  Well one of the articles titles How Blue Light at Night Can Transform Your Sleep, which suggests that the light of the blue wave length can basically trick your brain into believing it is day light.  The article suggests that exposing oneself to blue light in the evening is detrimental to sleep patterns.

I don't know, but I want to find out.

I don’t know, but I want to find out.

I sleep with my TV on all night due to anxiety I need to have background noise to fall asleep.  I also use my computer late at night and have lighting coming in through my windows and from my lamp for most of the evening.  I don’t think that this is a cure all, but on those rare occasion that I do fall asleep with having used my computer or having the TV being on I do notice that I sleep better.  The article gives some fixes for those wanting to lessen the effect of blue light exposure.

Amber colored glasses

Amber colored glasses

The article first suggests that a person could wear amber colored sunglasses which block most of the blue light especially while working on the computer in the evening cause lets be honest…how many of us are going to put the computer away in the afternoon and not use it once the sun goes down.  Certainly not me.

Computer Screen Cover

Computer Screen Cover

Another great idea he provides is purchasing a screen cover to filter out the blue light.  He provides some other great tips, so if you are interested in reading this article check out his website at the following link:


I thought is was quite strange to run across this article because two months ago my friend Jen and I were discussing how she was trying to block out lights, so that she will sleep better. Remember the universe is always in my thoughts, there by so are you.

Be Blessed,

<3 Hill